Darling, I'm lost
Adrift in the dark
I'm clutching your words
to my vampire heart, once more
So let in the light
Turn me to dust
If it don't end in bloodshed, dear
It's probably not love

Here we are
in the darkest place
My reflection
shows only your face

Something is found,
Something is lost
Went looking for clues
on the streets of old New York
And I spilled someone's blood
I broke someone's heart, again
Someone you know
You're looking at him, my friend

And the people in our lives
We all leave behind
Leave behind

Here we are
In the darkest place
To keep from forgetting
I picture your face
And I wonder
While we count the cost
Which is sweeter
Love or it's loss

So I curse you,
my vampire heart
For letting me love you
For letting me love you
from the start...

sleeping beauty

So delusional,
I believed I could cure it all
for you, dear
Coax or trick or drive or
drag the demons from you
Make it right for you, Sleeping Beauty,
Truly thought I could magically heal you

You're far beyond a visible
Sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to rescue
Sleeping Beauty

Drunk on ego,
Truly thought I could make it right if I
kissed you one more time to
help you face the nightmare, but you're
far too poisoned for me
Such a fool to think that I could
wake you from your slumber
That I could actually heal you

Sleeping Beauty
Poisoned and hopeless

You're far beyond a visible
Sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to
Find a way to comfort you
Far beyond a visible
Sign of your awakening,
Hiding from some poisoned memory

Poisoned and hopeless,
Sleeping Beauty...

3 Libras

Threw you the obvious
And you flew with it on your back
A name in your recollection
Down among a million, same

Difficult not to feel a little bit
Disappointed and passed over
When I look right through,
See you naked but oblivious

And you don't see me

But I threw you the obvious
Just to see if there's more behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy

Here I am expecting just a little bit
Too much from the wounded
But I see, see through it all
See through, see you

'Cause I threw you the obvious
To see what occurs behind the
Eyes of a fallen angel,
Eyes of a tragedy

Oh, well...
Apparently nothing,
Apparently nothing at all

You don't see me
You don't see me at all...

kanye

I've bitched about Kanye West for years on my other weblog... because he deserves it. His latest drunken rant at the Mtv VMAs just continues to prove my theory that he is among the biggest douches in the universe... and of course he apologizes for it... because everyone will go, "oh, he's sorry," which frees him up to do it all over, again... which he will... you know it... and I know it. He has proven me right every step of the way... and will continue to do so... because he's an incredible asshole. And to think that anyone looks at this guy and says, "cool...". He couldn't be anymore uncool if he tried... and he tries... and tries... and tries.

C'mon, c'mon, c'mon, lemme show you what it's all about!




Easy as



Simple as









Baby


(thanks to my niece Violet for supplying the improv'd artwork when I was up there, last month)

Well, scratch one piece of Cincinnati junkie white trash drug dealing shit... Becky evicted him this week and the boys in black are about to put the big pinch on him at the place he's holed up in... He's nowhere to be seen around here, finally... but his "daughter" (aka the little oxyhooker he's been pimping and paying the rent for in at least two other places) is still there... with her little developmentally-challenged infant daughter (there have been three other people "living there" since he moved in, and it supposed to be JUST him). Seems the authorities are going to have to put them out... all I can say is that I hope I don't come home to a burned down house. I feel pretty bad for the little kid, I guess. I mean, born with birth defects from her piece of shit mother's tragic habit... with a piece of shit junkie whore for a mother. So much against her, already. One of my friends said that CPS is preparing to get involved, which may or may not help. I mean, all the mom will have to do is pass a drug test or two to get the kid back... and begin the cycle all over. But this guy... this guy was great. I had him pegged when I first met him, pretty much... well, the second time, anyway. He was all dapper, with his suit and his business card talking about how he's a construction supervisor from Cincy in town for work... and the second time I see him, in cut-off jean shorts, wife-beater, Busch Light in a horrid glass mug, hammered, acting like a tit, pacing to the corner and back, talkin' about how I look like I like to party and he could help me out... followed by the thirty people comin' and goin' at all hours, the "daughter" perched on the porch waiting for her "ride..." It's a bit humorous when people think they're smart or they're being "slick" or something... and they just have no fucking clue... like I needed any help in this instance. lol Nonetheless, it's nice when friends look out for you.

So yep... Scratch one piece of junkie white trash drug dealing shit...

One down...

there for you

Sometimes I'm a selfish fake
You're always a true friend
I don't deserve you
'Cause I'm not there for you
Please forgive me, again

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you

Swirling shades of green
Slow dancing in your eyes
The sun kisses the earth
And I hush my urge to cry

Cry...

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to
Runs deeper than my bones
I wanna be there for you

'Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through -
I love you, too

I wanna be there for you
Someone you can come to

I wanna be there for you
And be
someone you can come to
The love
runs deeper than my bones
The love,
I wanna be there for you...

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gravity

Lost again, broken and weary,
unable to find my way
Tail in hand, dizzy and clearly
unable to just let this go

I am surrendering to gravity and the unknown
Catch me, heal me,
Lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live...

I fell again, like a baby,
unable to stand on my own
Tail in hand, dizzy and clearly
unable to just let this go

I am surrendering to gravity and the unknown
Catch me, heal me
Lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live...

Help me survive the bottom

Calm these hands before they
Snare another pill and
Drive another nail down
Another needy hole
Please, release me...

I am surrendering to gravity and the unknown
Catch me heal me
Lift me back up to the sun...

I choose to live...

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