Ugh... As solid as I've become, recently... I still feel like a wreck... like something was ripped out of me... and I can't get it back... I can't find it... and it's not finding me... it's cutting me in two... and ripping me in three... how many pieces will you take from me?

I deserve better than this. I came too far out of the darkness all those years ago... to feel like I've been hurtled back into it... fuck.